Right now, i know that things will not happen the way i want them to. Life has been offering me many surprises (God to be specific) and i take it as they come. But this, i want it so much ): I don't know how i decided upon how much i wanted this. I don't know why i make rash decisions like this one. All i remember is the day i prayed for this to be mine forever. I remembered crying and asking Him to give me this because i want it so bad. And it was without any hesitation. Because of that, i think i'm crazy. I was 16 and now 18. I still can't understand why i did that. And i do not have any regrets.

Yet, i'm trying to get myself back to reality and to accept the fact that it may never come true. I tell myself that my fate has already been written down. I can change it, yes. But only with His will. I still cannot change the way i think. What i want, it's perfect in my eyes. How can i not want it?

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Went to my aunt's place in the afternoon to pay for the pretty brooches that she made :D Talked to her about expanding her business and maybe renting a push-cart in school for her to sell her goodies. Very pretty and unique brooches really! I really love her hand-made ones and nowadays whenever i go shopping with my mum for brooches, not one of them catch my eyes anymore. My aunt makes very nice bracelets, necklaces, brooches and some of them come in sets. Of course, if you prefer swarovski beads, be prepared to pay more ^^~ I hung out there for 3 hours with her, Irah and Irdina (niece). Bik Mik came about an hour later to collect her set of jewelry too (: ! Irdina was a pleasure though, cute little girl. Very kaypoh young lady also! Haha! But that's one of the reasons why she's adorable.

Then i left at about 5pm with Irah and went home. Watched 1N2D while eating soon kueh (with lots of chilli, YUM). Ate mum's extremely spicy dish today (sambal prawns, eggs, quail eggs and peas - i don't know what it's called in english but in malay, it's petai). It's super spicy today that my dad's stomach had this terrible burning sensation. HAHA! But i enjoyed it a lot! My mum cooks the best dishes! Oh and i think i'm one of the rare ones among my cousins who actually eat and like petai. It's smelly though... I have to brush my teeth a couple of times and rinse with listerine before i go out. The smell is really strong but my grandma once said that it helps to clear your bowels and something like that.

My mum bought home some durians and i took one piece (my maximum already.. i don't really like durians) after eating dinner. Durians help 'cure' the spiciness leh! Really! I tried milk and it didn't work - i only got a stomachache as a result. Yakult doesn't help either - same as milk. Water helps a bit but durians... almost instantly!

Apart from all that today, Sunny and Mariame are back home safely! :D Praises to Him! Sunny's uploaded one picture on his dA and i really like it!

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Last but not least. !!

nadiah ong; ☺ says (21:39):
*<< dp so cute
nadiah ong; ☺ says (21:39):
*XD
#Sheng Yang { is reconnecting back to the internet. } says (21:39):
*Yeah, the kid was so cute. <3
#Sheng Yang { is reconnecting back to the internet. } says (21:39):
*Until he called me 叔叔.
#Sheng Yang { is reconnecting back to the internet. } says (21:39):
*DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD;