This whole dilemma that has kept me worrying non-stop taught me something eventually; prayer and patience. Things are finally getting almost back on track after a week. A WEEK. But whatever it is, how long it takes, i'm thankful that it's done and over with.

This week has been quite relaxing (i only realised when Xiaowei brought it up) though we're preparing ourselves for the upcoming projects. I think this semester too, i'm more organised in doing my work and finishing things quickly but efficiently too. I hope this drive won't stop abruptly because this is what i need to get me going. I'm trying to get at least 7 hours of sleep everyday so that i won't be so tired in the morning but sometimes, it seems almost impossible. I lay down in bed for hours before i really sleep. Not forgetting the fact that dreams conquer my sleep most of the time. As usual, my dreams are weird and funny but when i reflect back, i think it has some hidden meaning in it. Everything happens for a reason anyway. Mostly, i think a friend's situation has made me think quite a lot and more frequent than i think of my own because i try to put myself in her shoes and wonder how i would react to it. Then again, the situation that she's in makes me think of grandma's dream all over again. I know i've said a million times that i'm leaving it to God's hands but i can't help but ask mum for reassurance that she will be there for me no matter what. And also, how she would help me overcome it. For all we know, grandma's dream of me may or may not come true. I only put my trust in God to take care of my fate that i have no control over.

Good news. My dimwits - Shamz, Maira, Kelvin - got promoted to JC2 and so did Shawnie! I hope the rest of the EA'07 classmates made it through too (; Very proud of what they have done because it's difficult, so i've heard. My turn is just around the corner; yes i've made and submitted my choice of diploma i want to major it and i'm sticking with it. Thinking of the future, it's quite vague at the moment but i'm willing to try if people give me the chance to. My parents always tell us how they wish they were back in school and not working. I think otherwise at times but then again, maybe they're right. And those people who said secondary school is the best time of your life, it's true. So true. I miss the times in secondary school even though i had a hard time there *coughsec1cough*. In the bus today, my iPod was put on shuffle and the song Time to Say Goodbye by Andrea Bocelli and Sarah Brightman was being played. I recalled the times when Ms Ong would play the song while we did our history essays in class - secondary 3. Even though there were only about 13 of us, i felt that we had a great time together. People i remember were in the same history class in secondary 3, Jamie, Eleanor, Shawn, Aaron (omg so happy to see you every morning at the bus stop, polar bear/mountain tortise!) and Ben. Ms Ong's a Christian and she sort of counsels people sometimes and get them to go to church. And it happened once or twice in class that someone was behaving badly so she started to tell him things. I found it rude that he just laughed it off; afterall we have to respect each others' beliefs. But still, it was funny because they take it so lightly and jokes of how she does things like that O: Still, i had great times with the class. Same as in secondary 4 with Mr Chye and i think almost the same people. And i will never forget how Aaron messed up his essay (Hitler and whoo??) and also! How i had a dream the night before that Hitler was standing in front of me (he rose from the dead...) HAHAHA. I told Shawn the next day and i was freaked out >< PLUS, how sometimes we would call arguments between the different leaders childish XD Some childish decisions led to war; but who knows what they really had in mind. Ahhhh, feels good talking about history again XD I couldn't bear to throw my notes away; it's still in my cupboard D:

Moving on, today's Hafizah's birthday. I haven't talked to her for months (the last time was when we broke our fast together) and sent her a message today. She didn't reply though ): I hope she's coping well in JC too.

Last but not least, swimming tomorrow morning! Provided it doesn't rain. It's freezing tonight. But it feels quite awesome since i've been complaining about the hot hot weather for the past week or so.

And also because i miss you guys already.

Oh and...

Camwhore Kelvin! *kicku

Have a great day tomorrow! And of course, enjoy your weekend (:


, osn.

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