I've broken too many promises i've made to myself and to Him. From now onwards, even if i have to fight the devil in me till i blow, i will do all it takes to me a faithful servant. His Grace has touched me so many times, changed my life this year... There's no other way to make Him proud of me. I'll do Him this humble favour. Not because it's a chore. Only because i want to. And only for Him.

During FOC, i typed this on my phone when i felt at my lowest...

For Allah, i will. For Him, i will put away my desires, fear and what makes me want to give up. For Him, i will. For Him, i will. And since i'm doing it for Him, i shall not feel a sense of indifference and shameful of what i'm doing right. I will try my best to set an example. For Him, i will.

A week ago i met my younger cousin at my grandma's place. She told me she wanted to be like me. Even her mum mentioned to me about it. I couldn't be more happier. But i'm still not close to perfect. Being a role model to someone who's close to my heart, makes me even more motivated to do better. Thank you my dear. Your words have touched me and i'll try to be a sister to lead you, InsyaAllah (:

Tonight's post is very preach-like. But as always, if i don't type out what's on my mind, i will find it hard to go to bed or even move on to something i have to do next.

And mind you, we're all not perfect people. We all need to learn, to grow (:

I blogged this on Multiply in the afternoon
I suddenly miss the time i was in MI. Orientation was the best ever (till TP's) and my clan, Barneys were just so close. It was tiring travelling to school everyday but the people there pushed me and gave me the boost. Just so awesome (: Met some really nice friends there also. In such a huge clan, you can afford to not know everyone because of the big numbers. I remember when it came to clan treasure hunts, we played as if we knew each other for more than the mere weeks that we first met. Awesome people in MI (; I miss going to the stadium during breaks, just enjoying the wind and slight sun glare. Talking about anything under the sun with Qing Fang! I miss bumping into people* also (: Always gives me the goosebumps but made me feel so happy inside =.= I almost stepped up to do something but always failed.

My class is another thing. 08S1! Roger best la Roger. Kenneth,"Bye Siti!" Roger,"Huh? Which Siti? OH Ong Siti Nadiah.. Our class where got other Siti hor.." (I was the only er... Malay in class) And Roger aahhh. Still so nice enough to give me a piece of his chocolate fudge brownie on my last day. Thanks! (: Not to mention the jokes in class, the "Dragon" (inside joke) and all the crap. I didn't regret going there.

Sometimes you wish the happier times would last longer. Unfortunately, everything has to go on. Plants die, people change, we grow apart. But friendship, i believe it will last if you put in effort to pull everyone together sometimes.

Yes, i miss Barneys & 08S1 ^^y Hope you guys are doing great.

, osn.

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