It's just unbelievable that he would say things to me that i just don't want to hear FOREVER. But I should respect his decision i guess. But.. it really hurt my heart when i heard it. I actually had to talk to Don (my new counsellor) << LOL. He told me to relax and asked me to blab out my feelings to him. He's such a good friend. Thanks a lot Don. *HUGS.

I can't get my best friend. I think he's out of the country. And how dare you didn't inform me! LOL.

But really, thanks Don, i guess i was really facing BIG problems. Such as family, friends and .. my love life.

I related all that i had in my heart. And i'm glad i did. There were so many things i had to say. So many things but i had no one to turn to. Finally, Don came to my rescue. I really owe him a big big favour.

Okay, yesterday, i had to send my uncle to the airport. He was heading back to Dubai for work. It's so saddening that he only comes back once in 2 years. And he has to leave his family behind because of financial problems. But my aunt (his wife) might be going there to meet him. Aww, how loving.

I had tears in my eyes. LOL. Because in 2 years time, if he comes back, i can only meet him for like.. 3 hours? I would be having my O'leverls during that period of time.

*Sigh.. I'm so sad. I just wanna relate my feelings in this song by Lindsay Lohan.

Do you see me
Do you feel me like i feel you
Call your number
I cannot get through
You don't hear me
I don't understand
When i reach out
I don't find your hand
Were they wasted words
Did they mean a thing
All this precious time
But i feel so in between

CHORUS:

Someday
I just keep pretending
You'll stay
Dreaming of a different ending
I wanna hold on
But it hurts so bad
I can't keep
Something that i never had

I keep telling myself
Things can turn around with time
And if i wait it out
You could always change your mind
Like a fairytale
Where it works out in the end
Can't i close my eyes
Have you lying here again
Then i come back down
Then i fade back in again
Then i realize
It's just what might have been

CHORUS..

BRIDGE:

Am i a shadow on your wall
Am i anything at all
Anything to you
Am i a secret that you keep
Do you dream of me while you're sleeping after all...

Someday
I just keep pretending
But you'll stay
Dreaming of a different ending
I wanna hold on
But it hurts so bad
I can't keep something
That i never had...

Toodles for now people. Trying to find my own space. (:

<3 jersey 8

, osn.

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