I'm not a dog so don't treat me like one. I'm not your servant so don't treat me like one. I'm not someone to push and boss around. Yea, i may answer to your calls right now, but don't expect the same when i recover. I have my own pride too you know. So you think you're the big shot here? Dream on. I'm starting to dislike you. I'm always trying to be patient. Like always, i keep my mouth tight and shut and accept whatever you do to me. Because i know, God is right, Merciful, and Fair. He will take care of this for me, insyaAllah.

PS: Patience. It's been long worn out. But i cannot believe i'm still holding on to my already thining thread. Now, i know i can't forgive yet even though i try. Maybe someday, like i keep praying, you will open your eyes and realise your mistakes. Because i believe i have done nothing to have offended you in any way. I know i am not at fault. This time, i strongly believe in that. It was my time to learn, maybe this time it's yours.

PSS: Because of all these, i'm praying for God to open and lighten my heart and make me stronger inside in iman so i can face these events easily. Yes i whine a lot right now, but i truly believe it will come to an end in time to come. I hate, i dislike, but insyaAllah one day i can bring myself to forgive you. For now, you're creating this hostility amongst us yourself. Don't you dare put the blame on me for anything that i haven't done.

, osn.

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