Witnessing the release of O lvl results today was a scare to most of us i would say. Because Viva was panicking and my feet turned into jelly. I was very nervous, imagining myself as one of them sitting there NEXT YEAR. Time flies and i don't even realise that i'm turning 16 this year cos' i'm still this little girl inside. I still have the feeling of a 12 year old girl. Yes, i still think i'm a pri 6 girl.

Nothing much to say today, just more upsetting things.

1) Pressure is on us cos' 100% passes in physics and 85% in chemistry!
2) Anna Nicole Smith passed away (read so many reports on the death of her son, birth of her daughter, complications of the father of her daughter and all, felt pretty bad)
3) Chances of seeing mcdreamy is very slim (yea lame whatever)

The last one, could say i've instilled the incidents and looks in my mind. I came back and teared a bit. I don't know, just the feeling of regret. I don't even know what the regret is for laa. Let's just say that he created a huge impact on my life and the incidents made me ponder over and over on what was going on. I believe that it might be fate we're talking about, but again, i don't. Cos' i'm so young and i strongly believe that fate only comes when you're so much older. I wrote in my journal last night. Just a note to brace myself for today. Just one last look and very likely, i wouldn't be able to see him anymore. The feeling is horrendous. Secretly admiring someone is so tough. It's like this balloon that's about to burst.

That's about it for today. I'm going off to lay on my bed and ponder over so many things. I have so many fixed feelings and i think i have to sort my emotions out before i continue my work. I feel so tired, so many defeats after another. I am very tired... I feel like a punctured tyre.

, osn.

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