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Chinese/Malay, Muslim, RMIT (Bbus Mgt Finance Major) Year 2, TP Business - Banking & Finance (Graduate), B.I.G, TPVC. Loves God, family, friends, photography, videography, sports, music, movies - LOTR, Transformers, European history, Japanese & Korean culture, Julia Roberts, Whoopi Goldberg, huge KPop fan, books by Jodi Picoult, Stephenie Meyer & Khaled Hossen

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05 November 2008, 9:56 pm

now you've gotten on my nerves

Thanks ah Viva. Even though lunch got cancelled, i honestly was just joking around. NEXT WEEK K K! HAHAHA. Ramen Ten only because i still haven't gone there before D:

I bought another book. Ways to Live Forever by Sally Nicholls.

And i've been thinking... I'm forcing things to happen because i want it so much. So maybe i should stop wasting my energy because i keep walking and looking but... nothing (:

Date with dimwits this Friday. I can't wait :DDDDDD Although i'm still 70-30 about it, i still can't help but think we're going to meet again (:

Early release tomorrow. THANK YOUUUUU D: But i still need to stay back in school for some research, gaaahhhh.

PS: You know, i love you.. But you have no right to say whatever you did. What was on your mind? To take such things so lightly, to think you're perfect, you're always right. And also... to think that bringing me down by always saying,"Jia lat already la like that." would 'encourage' me to do better. I cursed in my heart and hated you to the core and it's going to take some time before i forgive you. I asked God to forgive me and save us all from this madness. You are WRONG about EVERYTHING. I seriously mean everything.

I go to school everyday with a smile on my face even though there are things going on in my head. It's always been like that hasn't it? I feel best when i'm out, i feel happy when i'm with my friends. Why don't i feel the same here? Why do i shed tears night after night over the same problem, the same reasons, the same person? I don't know what else to do. I've told myself a thousand times that you will never change. But she is the one who reminds me to keep praying and not say such things. Honestly, you're at a point of no return.

You'll never change. Your attitude and personality will worsen each day.

It's maddening. It's even worse when you spoke of that word. THAT WORD. I only wish i had the courage and guts to speak out for myself. Maybe not for myself only but the rest too. But i'm still not ready. Not ready to face that huge ego of yours that explodes whenever i correct you. You're perfect and always right anyway right?

I hate this. Karma's repeating itself again. Why do i even keep posts like these in my archives. WHY. HELLO? It's coming to 3 years and it's still the same. WTH?

, osn.

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