Second, yet true first love. I've only been in the same class with him for a year. A very fast year. The feeling slowly developed la. I just don't know why. But there were plenty of girls going after him(trust me).

Things turned out smoothly, i took my move first. And confessed. We took it like nothing had happened. However, we became extremely close. In games, we would call each other "husband and wifes". It was abit ridiculous, but he just wouldn't stop tickling my heart. It was a period of bliss for me.

When we see each other in school, we would exchange smiles, wave to each other and stuff. I miss those times. But he began saying things that NO GIRL wanted to hear. Maybe he thought i was over him, maybe he thought it wouldn't hurt me. But yeah, he started saying things like," I want to be with the girl". She(his jewel in his heart), was my enemy. Ever since the first day of school. Something just happened. And it was just a bad impression.

That sentence hurt me, and i cried for many nights. Thinking about him was the hardest part. I forgot how he looked like, how he smiled, and the smses he sent me. It was again, horrendous. It seemed like, as if everything was gone down the drain. I gave up hope soon. We grew further apart, much much further apart. We stopped chatting, we stopped sending each other messages(but when i do get those sort of funny smses, i will send him). It was like a love triangle. Her, him and me. I was the odd one out. I was the black sheep in the herd.

I was demoralised. I couldn't concentrate on my work. Whenever he passes me, my friends would nudge me(as always), but i just didn't feel the feeling i used to have anymore. Everything seemed like it was changed 360 degrees. The world spun against me.

After much hurt and painful moments, yea, i decided to give up. It's definitely hard to be in love. But now, everything has to move on. My heart is slowly mending, but that ass is tearing it apart again.

Why can't guys just.. GAAAHHH! That ass. Dumbass's ass. <- What mariam calls him.

Well, maybe it seems to be true about what my friends and cousins told me. That i like older guys. XD I'm not too sure about it yet. LMAO. But my life is a total spin-around. Anything can happen. Anyways, there's a new "he" in my life now. It's being kept a secret, no one knows, and no one will guess it right.

Heehee, bye ya'll. Liverpool vs Everton next.

P.S: Di, jie will play with you robot rage if you want. LOL

^(been helping him earn cash.) extra cute + chubby godbro. XD

<3 jersey8.dimwit8

, osn.

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