1) Work politics (but i know the duration is probably too short to speak of this - i hope)
2) Difficulty in coping with tasks (since i worry too much and get paranoid)
3) Days off for celebration (Hari Raya is just around the corner...)
4) Coming home after work and have to deal with my emotions (i wish he'd make everything easier for him and everyone, really)

Hmm, the last point is quite obvious. But i've really been trying my best to keep myself calm and collected no matter what happens. When he gets mad, i go off and let him calm down before i speak to him again. Takes a lot of effort to speak again, you may not know. I'm still trying. I know i've said a gazillion times that i've had given up trying and all but i keep taking back those words because of who he is to me (: And i am the one who keeps saying,"Forgive and forget," so why am i not acting on what i've said right?

I cooked dinner tonight. Soup with tofu (: I didn't put much salt in the beginning so it tasted pretty bland. Reminds me of the period when i was telling Jickky my problems. HAHAHA. The time when i cooked chinese fried rice for my dad and went,"I don't want to put too much salt because then i will kill him, ya know." And he would reply something like,"Just put the salt else there'd be no taste!" Reminds me too that he was my talking parrot then; and one of my soccer khakis though not as good as Shawn (LOL); and the person who always say,"why are your cheeks so red!?" whenever i return to the classroom after P.E. Oh yes, the Sunday Arts Central shows at 9pm! XD SEE! I don't forget memories i spent with friends k. I tried to recall how i met a few of my friends and i still do remember most, surprisingly! I treasure every minute spent alright (; Haven't spoken to Jickky in ages! But i know when the time comes, we'd probably be chatting again. I think he's busy with school and all, just like everyone else... except people like me who're having a long long break.

Have you watched space chimps by the way? If you haven't, you probably should! I watched the trailer once and it was pretty funny though i hated the fact that it was cartoon (i gradually hated watching cartoon movies after i hit 16 for some reason; maybe it was a movie that turned me off but i'm still not sure myself) But i decided to watch anyway because i found it cute and hilarious at the same time.

The aliens in the movie were awkward, to me it was as if the designers/artists didn't care if the aliens looked nice and just drew them without thinking of creativity and sorts. But whatever, the rest are just alright. I quite like the plot though. I thought it was interesting and thrilling. It felt as if you're on a mission along with the chimps. Not forgetting an extremely cute character in it too (with an extremely high-pitched voice but adorable personality and appearance). Not going to give any more spoilers so you should watch it and find out more yourself (;

I miss watching Scrubs though i never caught up with the episodes every week (because why? they always put the show slots at midnight ;____;) I LOVE ZACH BRAFF. He's so damn funny, lol. Here's a funny .gif i found in my photobucket.

My mum was talking to me about someone during dinner - i accompanied her at the table. I wondered what was on her mind. And sometimes i wonder what the person she talked to me of was thinking about me. Sounds stupid but i do miss him XD It's something cliche.. Like.. so near yet so far, that sort of thing.

That was in my brain. I just typed it out while i was semi-conscious. ZOMG, my brain's taking over my body, that's pretty scary. HAHAHA

My secondary 1 confidante, CRYSTALINE:
I found your blog! Glad to see that you're doing fine (: Miss our secondary 1 days. How we were so reserved in our first year in secondary school that we only had each other to depend on even though we got to know Shalen and Mahsury later in the year. Plus, our times in Chinese Orchestra, the grumbling, frustration, laughter, fun and every single day we had together! All the compromises (of whether we should go or not) and the tiny squabbles, crush (HAHAHA, omg i still keep my secondary 1 journal you know!) and whatnot. My sec 1 year ended quite unexpectedly but i was more than glad to have spent it with you, Shalen and Mahsury. Really... If you remember, i couldn't stop covering my face on the 2nd last day of school. If you don't, it's probably better maybe? HAHA! Anyway, Shun Oguri and Ikuta Toma are love. Though i prefer the latter much more XP Hope to catch up soon!

PS: LOVE LOVE LOVE my lj friends! They don't judge you, they care for you (though we're living on opposite sides of the earth) and no matter what, they still care. But of course some of my friends do that too la <3
PPS: Been looking through the 3 yearbooks i 'collected' in my time in secondary school. I miss every part of it (: And i truly mean what i say.
PPPS: Geng, i hope it wasn't true that you started smoking ):

, osn.

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