I shouldn't be deterred by the fact that he can make me feel like that. As much as i hate to admit the fact that even though i keep telling myself to ignore it, i cannot because i'm someone who cannot hold back my tears easily. At least i wasn't lying. You should be grateful for that. I'm only asking you to be reasonable before raising your voice at me because i have a reason for everything i do. And is it my fault that you cut me off while i explain myself? That's not fair to me right? If you want to be angry at me for something i have not done wrong, i have more reasons to be angry at you (of which i've kept my mouth SHUT since FOREVER). I'm already pissed off with your lack of respect for us both. If you really cared and if you really preach what you say, you wouldn't keep doing this! I am utterly disgusted by your behaviour and have voiced my opinions, only to be answered with a,"Stay calm, be strong. Be patient always." I'm human too though. I've been too patient with you. Too kind with you. Afraid to stab your huge ego because then i will only be more miserable if i did that.

I started off this morning with honeydew milk tea. YUM. Thanks to my brother's recommendation, i'm now a fan of it. Travelled to school and read my brother's National Geography magazines and saw this super cute picture of a frog that swallowed a bulb of the Hari Raya/Christmas lights and so it's stomach was glowing. HAHAHA! Stayed in school for 2 hours T_T Would have preferred to stay longer really but most were gone. Anyway, i was getting really hungry and the craving for ramen overcame me and i dared myself to go and have lunch at Ramen Ten myself. I did this a couple of times already because (1) most of my friends were busy, (2) i wanted to be alone and think think think, (3) i wanted to eat something really badly. XD It was a good break though. Finished my bowl of super spicy ramen and was bloated. Satisfied though. Then i decided to take 39 home because.. I wanted to take a longer time to reach home, clear my head. Didn't work though XD I fell asleep halfway through so i didn't get to think much. Before i knew it, i arrived at my stop already. I wanted to go to the pool to swim (because i realised my breathing has been .. quite bad lately again) because the weather was so good - slight drizzle. But i was afraid they wouldn't let us swim in case of thunderstorms and lightnings. )8

But i managed to make my day brighter (yes, i cheer myself on) with the ramen and soooonnn kueeeehhhhh my mum bought for me when she came home :D

I predict the next few days will be filled with fun. Time to sleep early. Mum 'threatens',"Go and sleep early. Or else your pimples all resurface again then don't come to me crying." HAHAHA <3 She's been helping me apply this thing called CellFood or something like that. My forehead's getting better i think, but it STINGS. I pull my fringe everytime she puts it for me because it really does sting your skin! But my mum said it works leh.. *shrugs*

Ok, i shall go sleep and be prepared for tomorrow. I snoozed my alarm like... 5x this morning? First time, delayed an hour, the next 4x every 5 minutes. SIAO. But i still wasn't late! Then again, i should to discipline myself to be punctual when school starts. I used to be 30 minutes early for class as a Freshman last year. This year, 5 minutes or less. T_T

PS: Black bird fly (toy camera) - 黑鸟飞/burung hitam terbang

, osn.

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