I confessed, yea i did. But the only thing that happened was that we became even good friends. Yea he knows, so what? I don't care if he doesn't like me, cos' we barely know each other, and furthermore, i feel it doesn't matter what happens in the end. I actually told myself to save the first hug, kiss, and the 3 words for my future husband. Look, if you're attached and you do things like that, what are you going to tell your future husband? What if he finds out that he's not your first true love? Definitely, well, maybe, things can turn out ugly. For me, now, it's just called puppy love. I haven't grown to a certain age where i know how to differentiate people and how to make proper decisions.

I think it's cute to have crushes la. Like how a friend of mine told me who her crush was. She went all giggly and red and well, CUTE. Girls are girls in the end right? It's always good to have a girlfriend to be beside you to tell her all your secrets, though mine's a guy and doesn't do much =.=

Anyways, best friends to me are like the treasures of your life besides your family. Even though Chris doesn't communicate much with me anymore, i still feel the need to confide in him sometimes. He will cheer you up in any ways and he'll do silly things to make me smile. That's the thing i like about him. Other than his durian-aka-ah beng-like hairstyle, he's a funny chap. I miss sitting beside him during English lessons. I miss the times in primary school where we would crack our heads just to solve the problem sums. I miss every part it seems. I love memories, maybe both the good and bad. They make me realise how much i've been through and how i am able to withstand so much. And that there's no point dying right now after such determination to live to a dear 15 years. Sometimes, it also makes me realise how much i have learnt to treasure the people around me. Like my mum. The letter i wrote to her and the tears i cried when she was angry with me and didn't come into my room to give me a goodnight kiss. See, things have improved significantly. More things are coming my way and it's now up to me to solve them. It's my life, my game. With much said, it's always good to have both ups and downs in life (my favourite phrase :D ). You won't benefit if you have such a perfect life with things going your way. Trust me, you won't. If you have a perfect life, you haven't experienced the abd side of life, and when you start working, that's when you're really going to suffer.

Anyways, there are 2 competitions coming up and once again, the dimwits are going to take part. :D Anyone wants to help Hummaira and my team act? Email me yea? It would do a great deal, we might even give you a share of the cash prize if we win. :D August seems to be the dimwit month. First, Mariam, Viva, Kelvin and i won the report (PS: 800 bucks this thursday!), Shengyang got 2nd for the powerpoint presentation and Hummaira's group got a perfect score for their social studies project. Good news for us la. DIMWITS RULE!

, osn.

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