I get bored too, you know.

There, it's finally up. I woke up this morning and felt like it's too much, but i didn't bother to fix it anymore :X It seems quite messy but i'm pretty sure i'll get used to it... soon. Another layout from scratch since i don't know how long :P

My mum and i baked 2 different types of cookies for this Eid. I kindda pushed my mum to do it because we didn't bake last year and i wanted to do something this year rather than waste my time at home. Managed to bake enough for our household and gave some to my grandmother. She was quite delighted and i'm glad we sort of made her day better!

While shopping for clothes on Saturday (before our lesson at Darul Arqam), i told my mum that i lost the mood to celebrate Hari Raya already. I don't know the exact reason, honestly. But after my grandpa's passing, it seemed different.. I really don't know in what way but i don't feel excited for Hari Raya already. Maybe it's the hectic preparations for the house, clothes, planning for the family to come visit and all. It bothers my financially too - even though i don't have to fork out a cent - because of the current economic situation and because we are trying to be thrifty everytime we go out. (Although i really really want the lens... HEH.) But i guess it's only because i haven't thought about the things that will happen on Raya itself. The atmosphere, being with everyone in the family, reading prayers, asking for forgiveness, eating together and just hanging around and catching up with the times we've missed.

Quickly, 17 days has passed. Fasting has been ok apart from minor headaches and a grumbling stomach XD As usual of course! But insyaAllah, with the intention and sincerity to do it for God, everything will pass smoothly. One of the many reasons why i love Ramadhan is because my family finally takes the time off to eat together at the dinner table. Although sometimes we reach home later than others, we still sit at the table to talk and update each other.

Mum didn't allow me to go for the BBQ last Monday because of Ramadhan. I found it a reasonable excuse too but i really wanted to go because of the company and the 'farewell' thing. Then, last Saturday during class, our Uztaza told us that we should make time for our friends as well. Of course, we shouldn't leave out our prayers. But we should also make time for friends. So.. hopefully my parents will let me out on Thursday to break fast with the girls. I miss my dimwits. Unfortunately, most can't make it in Thursday so we'll have to schedule another mass meet-up.

Apart from that, i need to sleep early! My eye bags are getting really bad T_T Not to mention i have to head back to school on Friday~ But YAY! I get to see my favourite people in school, nonetheless! :D

PS: I know i always told myself the same thing. But maybe this time, it's for real.

, osn.

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