Time, I've been patient for so long
how can i pretend to be so strong?

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Chinese/Malay, Muslim, RMIT (Bbus Mgt Finance Major) Year 2, TP Business - Banking & Finance (Graduate), B.I.G, TPVC. Loves God, family, friends, photography, videography, sports, music, movies - LOTR, Transformers, European history, Japanese & Korean culture, Julia Roberts, Whoopi Goldberg, huge KPop fan, books by Jodi Picoult, Stephenie Meyer & Khaled Hossen

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11 May 2007, 8:06 pm
Exhausted..

Funny, i find myself lost in whatever is around me sometimes. I blank out from everything like during lunch today with maira, mariame, sunny and smelly. I didn't eat anything, only a sundae. And now, no dinner too. Mum didn't cook, dad doesn't seem to want pizza so i'm not ordering any. Verdict: starve. I'm so exhausted from everything. My head feels so heavy. I practically begged mum to bring me out tomorrow. She's working till 1pm so i'm meeting her at Vivo to catch Spiderman 3. I HOPE. Then on Tuesday(Viva's birthday), we're going to catch another movie. Wanted to go to triple W (wild wild wet) but.. bad time la. Haha. Everyone was quite happy that today was so-called the last day of exams. I'm not.. We still have our chemistry paper 1 to do on Monday, and our mt o's are around the corner.

I feel like i could sleep 3 days or more straight. My forehead hurts the moment i think of something.

Cross country in school this year. Didn't want to take part cos' of such a venue! WTH AH?! It's like a relay run this year, so.. i'm taking part cos' it's inter-class and just cos' i'm nto taking part in much events for our school's Oympics either. Class spirit maaann. And besides, i love relays. Haha. My last year here, rather try to get my hands on medals. Godo thing Sports Day worked out well. Got medals for 200m, 400m, and 4x100m. Not that bad for a year. Cross country, medal for sec 2, team medal for sec 3, hopeful to get another one this year?

No photo logs nowadays, just don't have the time. I don't even have time to visit my all-time favourite forum either. Boooo.

Anyways, here's a song by Nelly Furtado whom i've ben obsessed with since pri 4.

"I've been high I've been low
I've been fast I've been slow
I've had nowhere to go
Missed the bus missed the show
I've been down on my luck
I've felt like giving up
My life locked in a trunk
When it hurt way too much
I needed a reason to live
Some love inside me to give
I couldn't rest I had to keep on searching

Te busque de bajo de las piedras y no te-encontre
En la manana fria y en la noche te-busque
Hasta enloquecer
Pero tu llegaste a mi vida como una luz
Sanando las heridas de mi corazon
Haciendo me-sentir vivo otra vez

I've been too sad to speak and too tired to eat
Been too lonely to sing the devil cut off my wings
I've been hurt by my past but I feel the future

In my dreams and it lasts I wake up I'm not sure
I wanted to find the light something just didn't feel right
I needed an answer to end all my searching

I look in the mirror the picture's getting clearer
I wanna be myself but does the world really need her
I ache for this earth
I stopped going to church
See God in the trees makes me fall to my knees
My depression keeps building like a cup overfilling
My heart so rigid I keep it in the fridge
It hurts so bad that I can't dry my eyes
Cuz they keep on refillin' with the tears that I cry..."

Oh, and i sang Carrie Underwood's I'll stand by you to Shamz on her birthday. I could have practically sung it to her, but i sent the sms to her instead la. Haha.

, osn.

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