1. Trusting a so called friend who turned against me

My mum told me many times not to trust people around me easily. But i place my trust so easily on my friends, that sometimes, they break this trust that i have towards them. Like an ex friend who held my secrets tight and secure(of what i thought she/he was). But maybe she/he got carried away by the thrill and urge to tell others what they have in mind. So my secrets soon became public and everyone knew about me, my life, and my thoughts. Some of which i make fun of them and stuff. I don't know if she/he did it on purpose, but whatever it was, it was plain awful. All my friends turned against me and there i was. Eating recess alone, being extra quiet in class. Yadaa yadaa. Maybe i should really get a journal to pen my thoughts down, so only God, my diary and i know what i'm thinking of. Maybe it's easier that way, but i would miss my blog then. I've become attached to my blog(current) now. Cos' i've never updated so regularly when i had my past blogs. And the purpose i had blogs last time, was just to promote my layouts/templates on blogskins.com Yeah, old times. Where everyone criticised me for my bad colour combination and stuff. But i think i got better. ust not in the mood to start web designing over again.

Alright, before i head on to talk about other stuffs.

2. Befriending someone who has placed bad impressions before your friends, and being DUMB and still continue befriend till he/she stabs you.

Yeah, just recently i guess. I was told yadaa yadaa. Yea, he told his "best friend" to pass the note to me, but why can't he do it himself. Puzzled actually. Many of my friends found out cos i usually leave my wallet ON my bag when i go off to do something. I know, Shengyang scolds me whenever i do that, and when i lost my wallet, he kept laughing at me. But hey! Some kind soul sent it back to school! LOL. Kay kay, back to the topic. So, my friends who knew told me about his attitude and stuff. Yeah, i was his friend 2 years back when we were in the Math Olympiad. But i wasn't so close to him. I just found him an ordinary boy who's rebellious and serious. But who cares right? I haven't talk to him for 2 years. Not till this year. So.. my friend told me about him la, how they felt about him. All the opinions and experiences were pretty bad it seemed. But my motto was not to believe what you hear, instead, believe what you see. Heard of kou shi xin fei ma? Sometimes people twist and turn their words and the whole incident is like.. A story book. But really, i kept my hopes high in him and didn't believe what my friends said. But soon, maybe God shone the light upon me, and something happened which changed my whole impression on him. He tricked me into believing that he didn't send me messages calling me a bitch and what i presume, was his words. So? I blew it all. I sent him a whole long friggin' essay SCOLDING his friggin ass and mouth. And what he said,"I swear, it wasn't me!" ASSHOLE.

He seriously thinks i'm dumb you know? I had Mariam chatting with me at the same time, and i sent her all the messages we had. Friggin' ass. He told mariam that he was going to trick me. DUHHHHH! You didn't think Mariam wasn't my friend ah? Never see us together before is it? Really a DOPE. I simply gave me hell for the past few months. Indirectly calling him an ass whenever i see him. I know it's bad to curse. But God knows my position and situation. Someone who backstabbed me so hard and played around with my feelings. Come on' la. Who wouldn't. This was then i realised how friends were extremely important to me. Mingyi, Kelvin and I were talking in the bus on our way back home from Wild Wild Wet that day, and we talk about him lor. I was so thankful that i have them as my friends. I just wanted to hug them la. Seriously, these are the people i want to graduate with. Such good old times where they stand by me.

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Sigh, i guess i've said whatever is in my mind this time. I'm really pleased with myself. Being able to withstand these stupid stuffs ruining my life.

Studied for physics tonight. Quite blunt, my new physics assesment book is so crunched up already. Damn those highlighters and writings. LOL.

Anyways, be careful of who you place your trust on. Your trust is like your heart. And it's one BIG fatal error and step to make the wrong move.

[Edit]Sorry for the rude words in this post.[/Edit]

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