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Time, I've been patient for so long
how can i pretend to be so strong?
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OSN, 14061991Chinese/Malay, Muslim, RMIT (Bbus Mgt Finance Major) Year 2, TP Business - Banking & Finance (Graduate), B.I.G, TPVC. Loves God, family, friends, photography, videography, sports, music, movies - LOTR, Transformers, European history, Japanese & Korean culture, Julia Roberts, Whoopi Goldberg, huge KPop fan, books by Jodi Picoult, Stephenie Meyer & Khaled Hossen Tagboard
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24 October 2011, 7:29 pm
4 years on... Today marks the 4th year since my beloved maternal grandfather passed on. I miss him so dearly and whenever i pray, i am reminded of him. My grandfather was an absolute dear, and may i say, an oustanding man, husband and grandfather. My grandfather took care of me as a child and i had many fond memories of him even though we had a few language barriers. I guess these kind of relationships are what we call unconditional love? Everytime he fetches me home from school, he'll always buy small treats for me to fill my stomach especially if there wasn't food at home. Even if there was, he'd buy small things like epok-epok for me to snack on. He carried my schoolbag despite it being heavy and he never once complained. He held my hands even up to when i was 12 when we crossed the roads. Oh yes, one thing that striked him as an amazing person is the fact that he quit smoking for my grandmother. How sweet is that? And according to my mum, he sacrificed and worked very hard for his family. He always emphasized religion and up till his deathbed, he reminded his children, grandchildren and future generations to complete our prayers on time. Whenever i recall that, i tear a little at the thought of not being able to be by his side. I miss him so much, it's painful. I only met my maternal grandparents because the ones on my paternal side passed on before i was born. I am only left with my grandmother now, whom i love as equally. It's funny how we always realise how much we have missed out when we lose people we love. I lost my grandfather during my O level period. It was a hard time to deal with. He was the first family member that i lost. I didn't know how to deal with deaths then and i'm pretty sure i still don't know how. I fell asleep reading Surah Yasin when i got to know of his passing. My cousins and various family members kept it from me.. They felt that it was the right thing to do. I wish they had realised that i would get to know it eventually so that i could be by his side too. But i've long forgotten about that grudge because i understand that they did it with good intentions. I also have to thank them for keeping me encouraged and motivated for my examinations. I miss you yayi. But like what my brother and cousins messaged me that night, my grandfather died a peaceful death. He was a good man, and a good Muslim. That he is in good hands now, so we do not need to mourn and be in pain. Because insyaAllah, God will shower blessing upon him for all the good that he is. I pray everyday, that God continue to bless you, as we do our prayers on time daily as per instructed by God and reminded by you. I love you yayi. I never said it to you, but i hope you know it. I'm sorry i never got the chance to tell you, because of language barriers or shyness. It's probably excuses, but i pray you're doing well and that one day, we'll meet again. InsyaAllah. |
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