2010 as many other years have been, was filled with many ups and downs. I cannot count how many times i felt disappointed with myself nor can i remember the times i felt like i actually achieved something. I cannot force myself to remember every single detail but the milestones for this year were:

1) My friends entering the Army
2) We started to organise a cousins-only outings which ultimately brought us so much closer though we have always been close-knit
3) My internship at OCBC
4) YEAR 3 SENIOR YEAR, FINAL YEAR IN TP
5) Receiving 2 awards for my service in VC
6) Celebrating almost every festival with B.I.G
7) First roadtrip with my dimwits

I'm sure there were more but those were the ones that i can remember vividly. 2010, oh where do i start though?

School wise, year 3 has never been (and still has NOT been) very nice to us all. The workload, pressure and packed schedules are really testing our limits. 2011 is not going to begin on a very good note because of the work and tests that has already been piled up for us since we ended our internship. I keep wondering how our seniors before us handled this. My internship was a rewarding one and i can never ask for better colleagues. Even though there was one slight issue that was frustrated about, it was only ONE thing and i kind of told my closest buddy about it. I'm glad there's someone i can trust there. And of course, my family who always listens to my rants at the end of every day.

Family wise, always the same but i'm so glad we've grown closer. Just a few days ago, i actually wished about how wonderful it would be if we all lived together. The trip to my aunt's place over the weekend was a proof of how we can all live under one roof and laugh and do everything together. I CANNOT live without my aunts, uncles and cousins. CANNOT.

Moving on, 2011 will be another year of rollercoaster rides. More decisions to make and i'm sure more tears to shed. I wish i could have more glorious moments in life but it doesn't work out to be like that for me. I know God has plans for me but i can't help but wonder why ): I'm sorry i feel this way but i do place my trust in Him.

In 2011, i shall be a stronger and courageous person. I shall strive to become a better muslimah and complete my 5 daily prayers on time. I shall not give up and talk about 'what-ifs'. I shall place my trust in God always and trust myself to do what i have to do. I shall be strong for myself and the people around me. I shall not like negative words affect my decisions or my dreams.

Because all that i have left now is myself. I'll turn 20 and it's time to become more independent. Cheers 2010. Thanks for the lessons and experience. I'm moving on with those precious memories and lessons. I shall be a force to be reckoned with, God willing.

, osn.

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