My first try at this. Perhaps it's good to put my thoughts into pieces like this. The weird feeling is back tonight. Why? Because i was surfing through the internet and found happy stories all over. Of course i'm happy for that particular person; at the same time though, i have to admit that i'm extremely jealous. That's why sometimes i think the internet is not a healthy place to hang around. It gets you thinking, both the positive and negative things. I just wish i had more control over my emotions.

I haven't laid out any New Year resolutions yet; more like things that i want to achieve in 2011. I do want to start but every year, i am afraid to disappoint myself. So what do i do? I refrain from listing down any resolutions. Though at the back of my head, i do have some things that i want to achieve. I'm like a coward, am i not? Anyway, let's list a couple of things down for a start.

1) Get my driver's licence
- We don't have a car but i for one will definitely rent a car once every month or two. My brother got his driver's licence but never really drove us out because he's very very thrifty. I though, am not a spendthrift. But i love to travel and i don't care where we're headed. Let's just take a drive out to wherever that leads us.

2) Pick up the Japanese language and writing
- I've been in love with everything that's Japanese since i was young. I took the elective when i was in Year 1 and i fell in love with the language and the writing immediately. It's something i really want to take up and insyaAllah, visit Japan someday.

3) Learn how to bake
- I've been pestering my mum to send me to a baking class :3 It's my dream to open a bakery (HALAL) in the future (though being the pessimist that i am, it's very far-fetched). And i've been inspired by this lady here who bakes yummies for her kids and family. She does photography + baking. What a wonderful combination!

4) Become a better Muslim
- I've mentioned this yesterday but yse, i do want to become a better muslim if not perfect. Alhamdulilah, i thank God every day for giving me the permission to put on my hijab. And insyaAllah i will keep my personal promise to Him to keep it on till the day i return to Him. (Amin) I also want to be more active in religious classes (desperately need to find classes in English) and read the Qur'an more often. Futhermore, my late grandpa's last words were to remind us to perform our prayers on time every day. I want to do that, insyaAllah.

Those are the top of my list. Though i really need to focus on my work till graduation now, i'm sure i'll be able to keep them and achieve them slowly.

There's another thing though. 365 project! I think it's a little too much for me but maybe a 1 photo a week could do? :D Again, insyaAllah! HEHE. Because afterall, things won't happen without His permission and will right?

So for now, insyaAllah to a good graduation and insyaAllah a uni for me too. God, please help me. Please make me strong. Thank You.

PS: I'm absolutely hooked to The Boxer Rebellion's If You Run. It's the perfect song right now. Why are UK bands so underrated? I pity them! Not only the bands, their movies too! Obvious example: St Trinian's movie 1 and 2! /hmpf.
PS: This is my 1,349th post!

, osn.

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