It's not a bad dream. I'm just extremely bothered by a lot of things that i wish would change. I've been following suit with whatever rules that have been imposed on me. I only broke them a few times (and for that i got the punishment i deserved) but now that i'm 18, shouldn't the rules be relaxed a bit? I know it's because i'm a girl and also because my parents are protective/concerned over me. But why wouldn't they let me go just slightly so that i can grow and be more independent. Oh yes, they say i should learn to be independent. But... like that? Monitoring me closely whenever i go out and asking me who i'm with, where i'm going, what will i be doing.

Even when i'm out, i am not at peace. I constantly worry i might make the wrong move and make them angry. And then i won't be able to come home to a happy and cheerful family. Maybe all these worries about making them mad and angry is why i feel tired. Every minute, every second, i fear that i will do something that will aggravate their anger.

But look. It's not like i've committed a crime or hurt somebody, or cause harm to myself or anything of that sort.

I just wish they would let me have MY own time with my friends because at times, i need them the most. They are the ones who make out my life as well, you know.

PS: Better be off. Meeting Ghangaa for breakfast @ mac.

, osn.

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