Chinese New Year has been less interesting over the years but I promised my mother that I will never forget my roots. I also told her that I want to try to bring everything together and build that bond again. To be honest, I felt extremely upset this CNY because of the 'difference'. I truly felt like i was missing out on something big. Not because everyone else around me was enjoying themselves in this festive season, but because i felt like i had lost a huge part of me. Someday, when i gain enough courage, i will step up.

Nonetheless, we spent our 初二 at Changi beach! Dad loves the seaside so mum initiated the trip. Weather was perfect. Not too sunny and it was as windy as it was before there. Except... The beach was littered by inconsiderate patrons :( It didn't feel as nice as before because you're sitting within piles of litter...cardboards, tissue papers, empty bottles.. However, we did have a nice family time together.

Anyway, that was how we spent our CNY this year. 初一 was just a stay-home day where mum fried lots of stuff for us to snack on while i lazily hung out in the living room watching Chinese movies on Celestial Movies. I wish we could afford the money and time to indulge in those Chinese channels! The movies are actually pretty good! But with the rising costs and hectic schedules, where can we get the time to relax and watch? Ahhhh life... Anyway, i went to have dinner at MacDonalds at night with bro and had a little chat..

Well.. i had a pretty boring CNY this year. In the spare time that i had though, i actually dug myself into my notes, can you believe? I didn't imagine myself to studying on CNY or CNY eve. But i did some revision because, in all honesty, i've been pretty worried lately that i would fall behind. And i'm starting to get worried on whether i can secure a job that i would enjoy upon graduation. All these worries... Should be put to rest.

Afterall... It's all in God's hands. Yes, we can work hard and all but ultimately, He decides. I recently asked mum if we could change our fate. Our fates have been written by God the minute we were born. So i was wondering if we could change it.. I think we could.. But God would know already right? So eventually, it still goes back to Him. Such a mind-boggling issue. Why did i even wonder about that!

Anyhow, it's back to school next week. And i'm pretty sure i'm supposed to start on my assignments already.. Oh dear...

PS: Hooked onto John Mayer... *__*

, osn.

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