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Chinese/Malay, Muslim, RMIT (Bbus Mgt Finance Major) Year 2, TP Business - Banking & Finance (Graduate), B.I.G, TPVC. Loves God, family, friends, photography, videography, sports, music, movies - LOTR, Transformers, European history, Japanese & Korean culture, Julia Roberts, Whoopi Goldberg, huge KPop fan, books by Jodi Picoult, Stephenie Meyer & Khaled Hossen

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06 April 2008, 1:44 pm

How can i do something that is not me?

I feel very sorry that God blinded you from all the things that i have done and given up for you. I DO NOT look for paybacks but shit, at least give me your respect dammit. When you said that i do not contribute in this ______, did you notice that i teared? DAMMIT. I didn't care/bother to say what i've done because i know, and God knows whatever i sacrificed to do the things i did. You failed to see my effort and i honestly feel very sorry for you. And if you're trying to get calculative with me again, i can count a gazillion things that i have done, and YOU have not. Like she said, i shouldn't keep saying or else my deeds would be written off. Someday, you will realise, and i hope God opens your eyes and see my effort. While you laze around and act like a _____(it's not a vulgarity la), you'd better be grateful that i'm here to do things for you. Because if i'm no longer around, you'd be bare. Till that day that i leave this world, i don't want you to cry. NEVER. Because of all the hurtful things you said that stabbed me to a point where i teared in public. I'm still waiting for myself to calm down before i forgive you, yet again. You have ABSOLUTELY NO RIGHT to pin-point at me and say i don't contribute. Speak for yourself first okay?

I feel like cursing here and there but i can't do it because it's not me. I said a few up there because i've reached my limit. Sorry.

I'll be back tonight with more pics of SJ-M. SPPAAAMMM TIME :D I want to see more of Hannie plsss, HEHEHE.

PS: He will not give you a burden that you cannot carry. He will protect you, if you do your part for Him.

PPS: I want to learn fast and effectively, so that i will be able to read the Qur'an well the next time i visit my grandpa and sister, InsyaAllah. I want to do my best and read for them because i've failed to do so before.

Grandpa, it's been almost half a year this coming 23rd. I miss you terribly... Your shirt in my cupboard always makes me tear whenever i pick my clothes. I miss you... I pray that God will give you nothing but the best, because i know you deserve it. <3

, osn.

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