"Diah, buddy passed away already..."
Me,"Huh...you sure anot?"
"Ya, daddy told me when he went out for work a few minutes ago... She's lying there, not moving..."
Me," *still not believing* ...Cannot be..."

(Mum goes off to wake my brother up, and i heard a loud "HUH?!" from him)

Usually, if my dad or anyone goes out/leaves the house, she would run up to her cage door and start grinding her teeth on the metal cage, but it was different this morning. My dad didn't see her coming up enthusiastically like every morning. Although my dad get mad whenever the cage gets dirty or whatsoever and scolds us, my mum told me he was pretty upset. (: A sudden passing, i didn't tear. I believe i have been in a state of shock up till now that i'm typing this entry. I didn't cry as much as when i lost my first rabbit. A bullet in the heart, they say. She's been with us for 7 years, it's impossible to say that i don't feel a thing. Especially when i have always been the one washing and bathing her and doing the usual routines. I didn't see my brother cry but i know he's sad inside. Of course he is, it's his rabbit in actual fact. So, when it was still dark, we went down to the place where we buried my rabbit 3 years ago (time flies so quickly...) and buried 'Buddy' (my brother named her that ^^ a few metres away. We were all shell-shocked because just yesterday, she was fine, no symptoms, no nothing. On Saturday, she was still as lively as ever. Just like humans, we die of old age. 7 years is a long stretch for a rabbit (a maximum life span of 8 years). Yes, throughout being her 'caretaker' most of the time, i've been mad at her for being impatient (to the extent that she'll get mad for not getting food on time -.-) and for demanding for more chocolate treats... But gosh, i never knew this would all happen so fast. I'll miss the usual routine... And i think everyone will get used to stop saying,"Nadiah, have you fed the rabbit already?" everytime they come home. My mum always talked about how she wanted to decorate the corridor with plants once the rabbits were gone but we've never imagined the time to finally come. And i can't believe i'm typing so much for this disheartening event. Like anyone else, i don't anticipate losses. I really don't. And i suck when it comes to crying... But suddenly i feel too tired, my chest is tightened so much so i can't take deep breaths and cry out loud.

R.I.P darling. People always said you had pretty eyelashes and i could agree no further. I love both of ya. Truly the best birthday present a 10 year old girl could get. <3

[EDIT] No worries, i'm fine, thanks *hugs.

I watched the derby last night with my brother and i was just in time to see Torres score. Right now, Torres/Gerrard/Xabi are my OTP3. BUT if Babel hadn't done the several mistakes last night, he would've replaced Xabi. LOL. But there should've been more goals last night ;) Mmm... AND I DO NOT WANT RIISE TO GO :(

PS: A fact difficult to swallow. [/EDIT]

, osn.

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