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Time, I've been patient for so long
how can i pretend to be so strong?
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OSN, 14061991Chinese/Malay, Muslim, RMIT (Bbus Mgt Finance Major) Year 2, TP Business - Banking & Finance (Graduate), B.I.G, TPVC. Loves God, family, friends, photography, videography, sports, music, movies - LOTR, Transformers, European history, Japanese & Korean culture, Julia Roberts, Whoopi Goldberg, huge KPop fan, books by Jodi Picoult, Stephenie Meyer & Khaled Hossen Tagboard
Exits
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01 September 2006, 12:04 pm
Insecurity Apart from the tummy ache i had the whole afternoon yesterday, YESTERDAY WAS GREAT! Especially when i went back to my primary school and saw tons of my friends there. To name, Ezra, Chin Kok, Julian, Xian Neng, Lelia, Delwyn, Agneta, Casssandra and a few more actually. But these were the people whom i really missed la. I squeezed through the staff room searching for Mr Chang and Mr Ganesan actually. I had to be quick due to the time constraint. Pretty much just wished Mr Chang a great teachers' day and went around frantically looking for Mr Ganesan who suprisingly still remembers me! I was like waving at him and he shouted,"AH! Ong Siti Nadiah!" Woah, i was shocked la, it's been like 7 years or something and he still remembers me! So touched. I talked to him for a bit and he knew Mr Muthu and Mr Brian from my school. He says he's interlinked. =.= He seem to know so much while i'm left clueless about his current state. Let's see, he even knows i have a friendster account and told me that i was lying about my age there. WTF! LOL, seriously, he told me not to get into trouble. In a joking manner of course. He doesn't pat my head anymore, which... rocks actually. Stops my brain cells fom disappearing. :D I had to rush back to school to catch the bus to NCSS for the prize presentation. We were one of the teams out of 9 who received Merit prizes. I had a tummy ache throughout which really sucked cos' i had to endure the pain for quite some time. Other than that, we got our certificates and a letter to inform us that the cheque would be sent to school. Ms Uma's going to get our certificates laminated for FREEEEE so.. YAY US. Still don't know when we're going to get out money yet and the treat for Mr Taufik and Ms Uma. When were back in school again after that, we played in the rain abit. :D Kept running away with Mr Rusdy's and Mr Dzul's helmet. Yea, KIDS. Viva then walked me home. I felt a bit better hanging around with the dimwits. They make me feel so much better and well, at least secure for once. Sometimes i think about insecurity and what is it all about. Maybe for me, it's not seeing the people who try to hurt me and such. I try to avoid them nowadays. Particularly the one who keeps asking me about my whereabouts. It actually freaks me out cos' he may be right in front of me sometimes and i may not notice. I'm afraid of being stalked home. Like how i was almost being stalked home when this guy whom i counselled when i was pri 6. He actually bought me a story book and offered to follow me home. WOAH, I FREAKED OUT. From then on, i learnt to really watch my back. Thinking about it again, i think i felt insecure all my life. Not until i met the dimwits of course. They just seem to take the load off my mind. DIMWITS ROCK! :D PS: Hummaira, love your group name (Dimwits) during your bio quiz. xD ; the eyes were the charms. it's hypnotising. :) |
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