I had a very different birthday this year. Starting from how i started my birthday this morning and how it is right now. It's so different from last year. I did tear again though as i look into the mirror and told myself,"You're 20!" It may sound stupid but i do that to myself during my birthdays (it has become quite the habit) just to wake myself up. I don't know the exact reason for my tears. But one thing is for sure, with the first drop of my tear, i muttered "Alhamdulilah" to myself. For God giving me the chance to live till this age, for giving me the chance to constantly renew my faith and remind me of who i am and what little time i may have left in this life.

Thank you to my various groups of friends who've been really thoughtful and sweet. I feel like i haven't been the best person of late so, thank you for forgetting my imperfections and giving me such a memorable 20th. It started with lunch when my '5 sisters' dropped by with a cake and then my colleagues whom i've known for slightly less than 3 months (my gosh, i was so embarassed because i really didn't expect it..), my girlfriends who surprised me (i can be so clueless!! Maira was sitting right there with the cake and candles lit, yet i missed her upon first glance), my grandma who came by to visit my brother and wish me a happy birthday and last but not least, dad buying me a birthday cake. MashaAllah. I have to say the highlight of the day was the latter.

I shall go to bed tonight with tears of gratefulness, appreciation, joy and just pure gratefulness.

I shall also end off my entry with, Alhamdulilah. Thank You, Ya Allah.

PS: Thank You for bringing my brother back safely too.

, osn.

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