We're soon leaving 2007 in about 3-4 days time? Yes, so we follow this calendar of the century of whatsoever they call it. Mum and dad forbids my family to celebrate this "New Year" cos' it's not the proper calendar the follow. Yes, i've still been wishing people happy new year and sorts. But i think i'll have to get used to the change someday. I'll try again this year though(so if you sms me wishing me a new year, you know why i won't reply - and don't think i'm selfish or whatever please -.-"). It's just something that you have to accept me for. A couple of messages from friends wishing me a Merry Christmas too. And recently, i just got scolded by my father for putting a donald duck ring tone(he was "quacking" to an xmas song) on my phone. Sorry to those i didn't wish you back. Instead, to those i did, i found myself saying,"I don't celebrate christmas, but merry christmas to you :)" A primary school classmate sent a christmas card to me and i almost got into trouble(but thankfully, he just said something else to me) and don't worry bout me getting scolded. I think i'm getting used to it. Besides, he has to understand that it's just a gesture and a thought from a friend.

This year, i see many muslims partying, celebrating christmas, doing things that non-muslims do. It's not as if i'm not sociable, but i do have a religion that i strictly believe in and follow. God never said we are barred from making friends of a different walk of life, of a different belief. But we are not supposed to follow their practices. If we do, aren't we just like the rest and should we then call ourselves a Muslim? A food for thought (:

And yesterday while on the train with Shamz, i saw something and honestly, i felt disturbed and i couldn't stop from being angry on the instead, and kept chanting,"God forbid" in my heart. I couldn't stop thinking till we alighted. It was a sight that disgusted me(i'm sorry -.-") and i went home to talk about it. Mum just patted my shoulders and told me that it's their lives. Yeah, i do understand that it's their lives, but do they think that they can escape from the punishment of God just by denouncing their religion? No one can escape punishment for the wrong that they have done. I remembered dad once told us that even though we will go to heaven, everyone of us has to go through hell to pay for our sins that we have done, before receiving the grace that God has prepared to give us. (correct me if i'm wrong, thanks). It's hard to believe what i saw. Even Shamz said that the mother was so scantily dressed. A MOTHER. A mother should be an example to her child, no matter how young the child is, isn't it?

Speaking of this, on hari raya haji, my aunt showed a video on corpses that were dug out from their graves just 3 hours after their burial and already, they looked so worn out and just.. unpleasant(trust me, the images were just gorey.) And there were also audio evidence of the dead screaming in the graves(this was confirmed by the scientists, so no kidding here). Ever since i saw that video, it'd hit me that there's a lot to be done. A lot has to be changed(for myself and for us muslims too). Initially, i felt remorseful that they had to go through such punishment from God. But remember, God is Just, Merciful and Forgiving. We have to pay for what we've done wrong. And they deserved what they got and we will get what we deserve too.

It's so difficult for me to put this in words(that's why i took so long to type this entry), simply because my english is not that... good and it's so difficult to describe ><

There's so much to thank the Almighty, despite the troubles that had hit me. There's so much to ask for, but forgiveness, is first on my list.
Like i said, just a food for thought. It's your choice to change, or remain as you are. Everyone has their own belief and their own right and freedom to choose. So, there. (:

PS: If you hate me or don't like this post, i'd appreciate if you keep it to yourself. It's my blog anyway, and there's no point criticising me or defaming me cos' nothing's going to change my mindset now. (:

, osn.

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