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Chinese/Malay, Muslim, RMIT (Bbus Mgt Finance Major) Year 2, TP Business - Banking & Finance (Graduate), B.I.G, TPVC. Loves God, family, friends, photography, videography, sports, music, movies - LOTR, Transformers, European history, Japanese & Korean culture, Julia Roberts, Whoopi Goldberg, huge KPop fan, books by Jodi Picoult, Stephenie Meyer & Khaled Hossen

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22 June 2008, 7:03 pm

my inspiration's kaput!

I've realised...
that as i grew up, i've begun to love things that are simpler than ever. I realised i didn't like things that are too profound and elaborate. I've probably become less inspired and lost the drive to do things i love because of this lack of inspiration. How long has it been since i designed my own layout? How long has it been ever since i coded my own layout especially! Believe it or not, when i was 13, i would review html codes myself and save it in notepad. I still have the folder of codes i managed to decipher out of the various layouts i've viewed. It's hard to find that part of myself right now. A tough fact that i have to accept on how much inspiration that i've lost. The drive and inspiration that i had once before were those talented artists you could find on blogskins.com. People like Jacelyn and Evone who were willing to teach me online, share their layout secrets and tutorials for people like me to follow. No offence but right now, blogskins.com lost their most talented designers like them. Layouts like the present ones could be praised endlessly yet during my time when i was 13, people would criticise them like hell. Even now, you start seeing simple layouts like the one i'm using right now. No surprise that livejournal's giving them the inspiration! But bottomline, i've really lost the drive to do all these things. I don't know why i stopped even though i clearly know that i love doing graphic design so much. So much so that i'm willing to give it up so that i can concentrate and give myself another chance at redemption... For my future.

Sometimes i wonder if i'm the only one doing self-reflections like that ): I seldom see people online say things like i do like that. People do criticise me about being so concerned about reflection and sorts but who's the one benefiting from this anyway right? Besides, this is MY blog. I have the right to speak my mind (except issues that are extremely unacceptable).

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Since we're on this topic right now... I don't understand why people have to criticise and discriminate the various racial/religious groups. I find no benefit in this. Unless you consider getting yourself into trouble a benefit. Honestly, all of us do have a tiny something against one another. But when you look at it as a whole, won't everyone live problem-free if we excluded all the hate from what kept you and your enemy apart? IF you look deeper into detail, we're actually all related to one another. Aren't we all Adam and Eve's children?

So why the hate? (: I LOVE EVERYONE! As ironic as it may sound, everyone has flaws so there is bound to be some dislikes going around. But big deal. After all, hating each other isn't going to make you happy anyway. What does hatred bring you? Jealousy, endless thinking about how much you hate the person and why... No point. Really no point at all.

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I might consider changing my layout soon when i am recharged. I got drained working on the printing and editing for my excel project and i lack the snacks i need when i do my work XD So, just wait and see if i manage to change it (: Mutters:Like anyone cares anyway!

, osn.

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