I guess these 2 pictures really explain today's emotions. I'm glad i've improved but it's still not enough. I almost cried on my way to school(come on', call me a crbaby whatever you like). I just couldn't stop worrying. And i think i had a great reason to worry anyways. I've improved. And i'll keep doing what i can for the next few weeks to cross the final hurdle. JIAYOU OSN!

I started studying after dinner. Was surprised i didn't shed a tear. But halfway, i finally did. My muscles are aching. This sucks. I don't feel good. I can feel my forehead burning but it's not fever. I can feel my stomach grumbling(i only ate a burger the whole day) but i don't feel like eating. And suddenly, i stop talking to almost everyone. Except for some times when i have the "mood". Sorry sorry. Planned to stay up to do a math today - praying that i'll find the strength cos' the aching and burning sensation is killing me. I think it's the weather.

PS: If i get lucky, maybe i'll get to see you there. At least, for that few months. (: - maira momma knows. :D

PSS: When can i finally relax? I'm always so tense. What's the solution to keep going without being so worried about everything?

, osn.

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