And i really want to look deep into this quote. Sometimes, i do tell my friends who are down, and use phrases like these to console them. But what use is it if YOU yourself don't believe in it? I can't believe all these while, i've been motivating my mates, but not myself. Maybe what mum said was right. I try my best to help friends and people around me. But I should first put myself the utmost priority. But also, i should help others. Mums are really important i think. What they say are always right. But that is, referring to my mum. She always provides the right advice, which would return me benefits that i really need. Yes, i used to nag and blab about her lectures. In fact, they have helped me grow even more. In my dad's eyes, i'm still the little girl. I'm still the baby who needs to be loved. Dad scolds me often, but i believe, scoldings help me grow.

You guys may not have tasted the bitterness of my life. My parents would go to the extend to discipline us. We used to be caned, slapped, and scolded till we tear. The pain was unbearable. But i guess this is just another part of growing up? Life isn't easy. Nor is it hard. It's up to you to solve the obstacles you face. Your life, is in your hands. You lead your own life. You decide how it is going to be like.

I may look strong on the outisde, but inside, i remain the timid, soft-hearted girl. I'm like a turtle still refusing to come out of it's shell to look into the world. Yea, i look extremely happy with my gang in school, but inside me, i tear apart, and i can burst out in tears anytime. Cos' my friggin' brain doesn't erase the horrendous past i had. It doesn't help me forget the incorrigible memories i had before. Instead, anytime, anywhere, any incident that has happened to me before, would appear in my mind. It's restless. Maybe it's the devil who's whispering in my ears. Everyday, if i have the time, i would practice my prayers, and memories different prayers. I guess it's better to have a balanced life. Religious, and academically excellent. I want to live like that. It doesn't matter if i don't get what i want. But the priority now, is to make myself happy. EVERDYAY. WITH MY family, friends.

I'm starting anew. I have a new beginning, and i'm not going to spoil the ending.

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Mum, dad and i went to Sembawang Shopping Centre this afternoon. Bro is coming back late tonight, and this really sucks.

We went for lunch and headed to Giant. Bought some stuffs. Dad bought a pair of jeans, mum bought me PJs(sleeping pyjamas)<- I know it's abit lame, but it's easier. Wash lesser clothes. :P
Then i went to grab some marshmellows for bro and me. Dad then brought me to Northpoint to get some stuffs at Popular. He bought some labelling thing, and mum told me," He likes playing with these things." LMAO! I giggled lor. My dad is like what? 54 years old, and PLAY?! My mum har... HAIYO! Haha, my dad loves to try new stuffs, and furthermore, i don'thave to write my name on books with my fugly handwriting anymore. :D

Then we got home by 5.45pm and i proceeded with fixing the layout and stuffs. It's time to go now. Going to start reading my new fantasy books. :D

PS: My heart SKIPPED A BEAT when i found out that this post wasn't posted! LUCKILY i HIT THE BACK BUTTON QUICK *faints

, osn.

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