Extra(you might find it boring. I just wanted to express my guilt, or else i may not sleep peacefully.):

Today, I did some self-reflection in my room. You know, I've been thinking about the Day of Judgement. Did/do you?

I feel remorseful. I have been crying out of no reason for the past few weeks.

And i have just realised why. I MISSED GOD. Yes. I miss Him so much. Why?

I haven't been doing my 5 daily prayers completely. Sometimes, i was lazy, busy, or just plain lazy (again).

I have asked Him for help everyday, every hour. I remember Him everyday, but that only keeps Him near to me. But, since He has answered my prayers, why didn't I fulfill His wishes? Why didn't i repay His kindness. It breaks my heart for not prostrating(bowing) to Him. He is indeed merciful. He is indeed the All-Knower.

I hope, and i pray, i will change and be a believer. And not only a muslim. A believer*. I also hope that God will forgive me ... from the bottom of my heart, sorry.

*- A believer not only believes in the religion, but practises it faithfully, sincerely, and does everything(practice his/her religion) because of God.
- A muslim/etc.Only believes in the religion and practises it just for the SAKE of it.

So, I shall end my day of with a prayer of forgiveness, and InsyaAllah(God willing), He will forgive me for my sins.

toodles.

, osn.

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