Tonight i reflect on myself again and the frequency of me asking my parents to get something for me. The things i've asked for in my entire 18 years which were most significant were: (1) rabbits for my 10th birthday, (2) a piano for my 14th birthday and (3) a camera for my 17th birthday last year. Even for those things, i had to wait for months or a few years (for the camera in fact) to have them. It took quite some time, i think 2 years before i could get my hands on the camera. Funny story when i recall back of how i started to hint to my dad that i wanted a camera. Then, i was obsessed with getting the Canon 400D and Maira too! Maira was so desperate that she even cut out the newspaper advertisement of the camera and put it in her wallet/organiser. My rabbits were kind of like an on-the-spot decision. They were a delight! I regret that i didn't spend more time with them, really. I was too busy with my PSLE, streaming exams in sec 2 and my o levels. I grumbled a lot when no one at home is willing to help me with the feeding and washing the cage/bathing the rabbits. I was really mad once because my mum started to threaten me that she would give them away. I was really mad at my brother for not helping out :/ He did some times but i clearly remembered how i did everything myself. Once i was so upset while cleaning and washing everything that i called my best friend (i was 12 then and Dez was my bestie) and cried. It was even horrible when i found a widow spider climbing on my right arm. I really cursed then... XD But in a way, i suppose it was a good move for my parents to get me pets. Responsibility right? Since i asked for it, i should be responsible for them.

Anyway, i have a feeling this post is going to become very irrelevant and incoherent.

But anyhow.. My mum kindda told me that she's willing to chip in the remaining amount i need for the lens. She said i have to wait till January though. HEH! She asked,"When do you want it?" But i just replied and said that it doesn't matter though inside, i want to get it asap of course, hehehehe. But she wants me to find a way to earn money with it as well. Right now, i'm just trying to hone my 'skills' so that people will trust me and my work. Because i don't want to jump into things without having the necessary 'tools'.

Then again, i look forward to a day when we can go out to shoot together (Maira, Mariame and me). And also Irah darling. I hope she gets her camera soon so we can go and shoot together.

I hope i'll have the mood to go out tomorrow. Planning to venture around Toa Payoh. AND HOPEFULLY GET MY STARBUCKS. Deprived T_T

PS: "Don't belittle yourself." // "Don't tell yourself that you cannot do it. Then you'd be half-hearted and not succeed."

Thank you both for the support and encouragement. My two most important cheerleaders lor.. Mum and mariame :D

PPS: I've stopped counting the months, stopped noting on my organiser. But i still cannot forget. Where are you?

, osn.

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