Yum, bokeh. A bit too much for my liking here but.. i still love my lens! 8D

Stealth mode, tyvm. Had to crop and edit this picture. Overexposed to the right so i had to PS it. I think.. i did it to the best that i could. Up to you to decide whether i killed the picture or not!

An impromptu meet-up with Mariame on Wednesday afternoon at Toa Payoh to go shoot in the heartlands. Wasn't the best time to shoot because of the harsh light but i think it was nice to go out for a breather and just.. shoot whatever, whenever. Just walking about the heartlands was quite shiok. But then the paranoia came in. That guy at HortPark really brought my confidence down. I know it's been MONTHS or maybe close to a year when that incident happened. If you were in my shoes, i think you'd still feel the same way as me. It wasn't a polite approach, more like intimidating. I think it's quite stupid to let that incident/guy scar me though. I love taking people and portraiture but he crushed my confidence.

Whatever. I'm going to get over it asap. Especially when my 35mm requires me to take close-ups D8 I can't wait for Ramadhan and Raya this year (HAHA so far-fetched!). InsyaAllah, we'll make it there. Then again, i hope more exciting events come up, be it family, school or friends so that i get the chance to shoot more often. I'm hopeful to push my family to take a family portrait to print and hang in our living room. Believe it or not, we have never taken a proper family portrait during Hari Raya or CNY. T_T

This holiday has been a disappointment though. Couldn't get a job and even if i had the chance, they'd call me and say they need someone who can commit for a longer term. Holiday's only 1.5 months ): And because of that too, i'm beginning to really realise that i don't have much rezeki (i don't know how to translate, sorry!) My mum almost said it out but i think halfway, she thinks it's too personal or sensitive a topic to talk about. But i know it myself very well. I never had much rezeki. I have to work hard for it. And with God's permission, it will come to me. However, i shouldn't let that be a reason to my failures. InsyaAllah.

I've been better lately. Living in self-denial, obviously. Just ignoring whatever bad things that have just passed. Not going to let them follow me as days pass. So yes, i'm still going to smile and laugh when i get the chance to.

Here's to start that goal, :))))))))))))

K bye.

PS: I love the weather lately! All Praises to Allah s.w.t for this wonderful weather! (;

, osn.

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