Ms Norayu,"u all dimwits like to hibernate in rusdi's lab...eat sweets...play games..hide from dunno who...enjoy air con..eat mcdonalds..try to do homework.. blah blah blah"

HAHAHAHA, quite true actually (: But it was the best time of my life~

Went out with Mariame yesterday. We went to Mac for lunch first before heading off to AMK Hub to find her game (which was unfortunately.. unavailable) then started shopping to find SOMETHING. I still haven't have any great ideas yet :( And one thing that upsets me is when my mum said she won't be going for the chalet on Friday night itself... And Wani (my cousin who stays in the opposite block) said she only ends work at 5.30pm. So i might... travel there myself? Though i really doubt my dad would allow it. Nevermind. I will get there eventually (:

And i think i kind of gave up trying to organise my primary school gathering :/ I lost contact with most of my classmates and it wouldn't feel complete right? Besides, no one is trying to help me out either (*kicks Chris).

And i'm not really in the right mood again because i argued with my mum last night :/ It's something i only told her and only her because i don't want to make it so difficult. It's only the beginning and maybe there's more to come. I don't know the real intentions but i really do want to avoid things like that. I argued with my mum because .. (I know it sounds a bit stupid but) she's being too overprotective. I did all right for level 1 right? Why don't you let me handle this alone? I only told you because i want you to know the truth and not jump to conclusions only when it eventually happens and you start nagging and lecturing me on how i should've told you from the start. And since it has been what... 2-3 days since i let the issue slide, why must you bring it up again? It's DONE. I've erased it from my head. And what's worse? I fear the day you will tell my aunts about this.. You seem to always tell them about my problems and all the embarassing things that i face. WHY? I trust you NOT TO and you do this.. I guess this is the reason why i turn to friends and journals and whatnot. I understand that my mum just wants me to be cautious over my decisions but since i made the right decision ONCE and she already told me that it's good that i knew what to do, why can't she trust that i will do the same in future?

*HUGE SIGH. I really don't like the way things are going now. I pray God will help me because i don't want to get in between this because i would be the one to blame (for something i NEVER want to start simply because it's not mutual) for all the misunderstanding. If my mum and me are speculating things too quickly, then forgive us because we're only trying to avoid it too.

Off to soak myself in something else to dissolve all these thoughts and keep them somewhere else. A tiny box won't help, because it'll still be in my head. Maybe just... write it on a paper, tear it into pieces and throw it away? You think that will help? :/

, osn.

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