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Time, I've been patient for so long
how can i pretend to be so strong?
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OSN, 14061991Chinese/Malay, Muslim, RMIT (Bbus Mgt Finance Major) Year 2, TP Business - Banking & Finance (Graduate), B.I.G, TPVC. Loves God, family, friends, photography, videography, sports, music, movies - LOTR, Transformers, European history, Japanese & Korean culture, Julia Roberts, Whoopi Goldberg, huge KPop fan, books by Jodi Picoult, Stephenie Meyer & Khaled Hossen Tagboard
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09 November 2007, 9:41 am
Sensitive topic Crazy. I was so angry last night, i had a MIXTURE of dreams. But the first one was nice! :D When it's nice, i meant mcdreamy. Haha.. Speaking of which, 8 months already! Haven't seen him around. But hey, it's a small world, so you never know :P My second dream was about my grandpa, but i'm not going to spill anything. The dream's a bit unnecessary i think. I suppose i just miss him a lot. I actually think of him more than i have in my past dunno-how-many-years. The times when he would help carry my bag when i go to school, when he had to babysit me at home, when my cousin and i asked him for permission in a very cute way to go get sweets at the shop. XD Sigh.. Then.. after morning prayers, i slept again and dreamt about O's.. I dreamt i left like almost 6 questions blank on my physics paper? And my mcq's were waaaay below expectations? Woah... that wasn't a dream. That was a nightmare! But i didn't leave any questions blank for any of my papers, fret not. :) Stupid dream. I went to visit my grandpa and sister yseterday. =.= Cemetery..I cannot lie that i sometimes blame God for taking my sister because i know He loves her too much and that His decision is always right. My sister's was so small.. Tiny.. And we were talking about the condition of it cos' it's been 22 years and it's still so good. The woodwork was top notch and everything.. SubahanAllah.. And my grandpa's.. We read a few prayers and you know.. I didn't cry. Fact was, i already did the night before. I keep crying nowadays. I'm breaking my own promise =/ During prayer, before i sleep, just..whenever! The loss is definitely painful but as always, we must believe that their under God's care now. I always wondered how different my life would be if my sister's still around..:) But my grandpa told my mum once,"She'll be waiting for all of us in heaven, so don't cry.." InsyaAllah(God willing), we will. I still haven't gone shopping for prom yet. But i have in mind what i want already. So hopefully i'll get it soon. :) PS: Sensitive topic. Didn't want to blog about it but i couldn't help it :( |
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