Because that's really how it is right now. The 5 papers nightmare is back to haunt me (us, not me alone). I remember the last and only time we had 5 papers (before this) was in Year 1. It was madness i tell you. The main exams were the most horrible because i lost my temper, stressed over the things that i had to study (scream: MARKETING) and had a series of terrible heartburns. I never want to have that experience again so i'm learning to take things slow. Obviously. Been telling myself not to be too stressed and so i've been juggling a lot of random things in between my studying periods. Even if i feel like nothing is entering my head, i just keep reading my notes and hope the 'photographic memory' thing actually works for me; i highly doubt so. I somehow had a boost of motivation and drive after a short talk with my brother while on the way to school sometime this week. In a lot of ways, he's the best older brother - though i can NEVER express that face-to-face. He's been directing me and helping me make some decisions. Of course, there are many times i don't agree though i compromise and let him have his way. I know there are a lot of things that made me regret that but i'm taking that as a blessing in disguise. You know, trying to look at the optimistic side instead of harbouring and brooding over those regrets. They don't help; that brooding. Eventually, we have to keep moving forward because 1) time will never wait for us and 2) neither will the people and surroundings around you.

Well, with all that said, i'm trying my best to keep myself cheerful despite the constant phases of temperamental changes here at home. It's scary but we just have to deal with it. It's an aging thing :P So we have to try to accommodate each other. It makes me frustrated most of the times but i can't let it affect me and my studies. Though sometimes it gets so bad, i will feel like putting on my jacket, my hijab and pack my stuff and run somewhere else more peaceful. Then again, where is more peaceful? The library? It maddens me that inconsiderate people talk and talk instead of mugging like they're supposed to. So yes, home afterall is the only place of refuge and peace.

Guess what time it is now though. Wrong, not 12.27pm. Time to bury my head back into my notes. BYE!

PS: Doa for me ok? HEHE
PPS: I'm starting to really like my classmates. Just wish we'd open up to each other. And i really do hope we can graduate together happily! :) The 6 girls? OMG they're awesome as usual. Just wish we could do our projects together again! ):

, osn.

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