Yes, I can simply press the delete button if I'm not satisfied with the result. But I hate looking at pictures that I took that aren't.. up to my standard. It demoralises me.

I wish I can explain this to the people who have constantly shadowed me while I stand with my camera waiting for an opportunity.

Same thing goes for organising events. Yes, I was the event coordinator for B.I.G and yes, I organised a photography expedition during my time in VC. But now you're expecting me to do all the work too? See I have a passion for these things but it doesn't mean that I HAVE to be THE person to do it. Or am I wrong to think this way? While people nudge me and say,"Eh you organise ah!" and start to point fingers, I can either take it as a compilment (that they trust my capabilities) or feel like they're pushing the responsibilities to me.

I'm probably just bitter about some things but this is one thing that annoy me a lot. I hide my feelings on this issue for countless times but I have never expressed this to anyone yet. Perhaps I should. Before my passion for photography and event organising vanishes.

And truth to be told, organising events is something that I really enjoy. I love being part of the action behind the scenes and seeing drafts and plannings become a reality. And when the event ends, you feel a great sense of achievement. I have never been so proud to have become part of B.I.G as an Events Coordinator. In fact, during my interview, I actually requested to be part of Logistics. HAHAHA! A small girl like me in Logistics? I think they might've laughed at me when i left the room! :P

, osn.

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