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Time, I've been patient for so long
how can i pretend to be so strong?
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OSN, 14061991Chinese/Malay, Muslim, RMIT (Bbus Mgt Finance Major) Year 2, TP Business - Banking & Finance (Graduate), B.I.G, TPVC. Loves God, family, friends, photography, videography, sports, music, movies - LOTR, Transformers, European history, Japanese & Korean culture, Julia Roberts, Whoopi Goldberg, huge KPop fan, books by Jodi Picoult, Stephenie Meyer & Khaled Hossen Tagboard
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03 May 2007, 7.30 pm
Stress For the past few days, i’ve been finding myself digging into my social studies book, my a math papers, my chemsitry TYS and my e math TYS. I seriously don’t know what’s up with me. I had this sudden urge to keep writing and not stop. But i thought i was fine. Putting things down on my notebook, listening to my mp3. Everything was great but on Tuesday, in the evening, i kept asking my mum to feed me. I was so hungry la, i never ate like that in my life before. Then i kept staring out of the window and that made my mum ask,”What happened? Why you like so sad and gloomy?” I didn’t know why myself. But i cried (again) after a while. But my mum didn’t see it this time. Then yesterday, i had frequent headache, especially on my left side of my head, and i could feel my forehead pressing inwards, like towards the centre of my head. I felt terrible during lessons throughout the day. I came back, took a long bath and went for a nap. It was not until at night when i told my mum how i felt during school hours. She said i was stressed. Was it? Maira said so too when we had recess that day.. But i still had my regular meals.. unlike the previous months.. Is it my mentality? I don’t think so.. In my mind, i was like, “Okay, start studying.. mid year’s starting tomorrow. Start memorising your notes…” I thought there was no probably. But turned out, maybe there was. I didn’t do a last minute revision. I started 2 weeks back and just revised through once more. Mum made me sleep early yesterday, at around 2150hrs. But i only slept at 2300hrs. I felt so tired and all but failed to get the rest that i long for. Today at the parade square, i flipped my notebook open to get the last things in mind before the examination commenced. At that moment, i honestly felt like giving up. I thought about the chinese compre i had once. Story was.. she left school because she felt that it was beyond what she could take. And her mum allowed her willingly. But i thought about how far i am and how much i did to get to where i am. I rubbished those thoughts. During the exam, there were some hiccups, but i managed to do my papers, Alhamdulilah (Praises to Allah). I can ask no much but for me to do my papers smoothly. And since i rushed through my paper(i don’t know why but i didn’t leave lines between sentences for my letter writing! so i re-wrote everything just in time). Tomorrow’s my chinese paper, i’m very worried. Very. I think i’d better get some rest before my head really explodes and gives up. Any-o-how, i know i’m late but i was tired and everything yesterday. So.. LIVERPOOL ARE IN THE FINALS (CHAMPIONS LEAGUE 2007!) AND! A REPEAT OF 2005! AC MILAN vs LIVERPOOL in Athens in 2007! lots of love, osn PS:I have a blister on my thumb. How’s that sound? RRRRRRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRR! |
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