So, yesterday i was talking about figuring things out in life. Sometimes, i really don't understand what life is all about. I asked my parents. They asid it's about devotion to God, and to achieve yadaa yadaa la. To me, life is.. plain. You realise, you repeat the same routine everyday.

Wake up, go to school, come home, sleep, study, eat, sleep. Then you repeat all over again. Yea, devotion. It's the most important thing. But is life what it seems to be? For me, i don't think i've found my life. Not that it's not perfect. Life, you have ups and downs. It's supposed to be balanced right? I think i'm on the road now. I'm having a more balanced lifestyle than ever.

After writing the letter to my mother, pouring out what i had in my crumbling heart. I felt much better. Some things like that, you cannot put it in words and speak out. So i decided to write a letter. It was a suggestion by Eleanor. Thanks.

I feel that in life, there's no one way road. It's not the way you want to live right? In life, i believe that there are different routes to choose from. It all counts on you. Whether you make the right or wrong choice. Agreed? For me, i've not come to the point where i need to choose. There's so many points of time where you have to make the right decision right? But when?

I'd say, when you're mixing around with friends, relationships, your attitude and stuff. the biggest change when you make a decision is of course, to me, marriage. Why?

You have to pick the correct/suitable soulmate. I wouldn't want a broken family, do you? I want a person whom i can count on. Cos' you're going to go through thick and thin and obstacles with him/her for the rest of your life.

This post dedicates to my Godbrother. Who's 28 this year, and still unmarried. I hope you will get a soulmate soon, kor.

Other than that, in school today. Hmm, recalls. Was quite ok la. I had to read aloud during the chinese lesson.. I think i did quite okay. I improved and have more confidence in reading right now. Thanks to my tutor. She has applauded me even though i fail to meet her expectations. It takes time right? It's harder for me to learn mandarin cos' i don't have a strong mandarin-speaking background in my family. My dad doesn't speak mandarin but hokkien. So do my aunties and uncles. So, yea.

But i do hope i can do well for my chinese during my o levels so i wouldn't need to take it again in my JC years. I hope. I still haven't made up my mind! I don't know whether to go to a JC or poly. But most probably JC, cos' it's a faster route to UNI :p

My brother is getting his A level results next week! *prays for him. I really do hope he does well.

For now, i'll need to study hard for my common tests next week. Before i get NAGGINGS from my dad. I want him to have a good habit la. I don't want him to scold/shout at me anymore. He's a year older now, and has to take care of himself even more. But i do hope that they would give me a chance to bring my them(my parents) overseas to live a less stressful life. But God has planned everything. If my future is bad, i still have a chance to change my destiny right? So do YOU!

Take care guys. Look ahead of life. It's not easy, so stop dreaming, and start working!

<3 jersey8

, osn.

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