I don't understand why you have to be so angry at almost everything and everyone. One minor issue and you can blow up on everyone else. We're not your punching bag either. We all try to understand but why can't you see the better things in life? Why do you feel as if the world owes you a living? YOU ALWAYS DO. Not only the world but EVERYONE ELSE AROUND YOU. When can you stop your whining and your tantrums? WHEN? Lately, it seems that i'm always the one who carries your frustrations and the one who tries to keep quiet even though you blow up. Lately, i seem to be the worst person on Earth that you don't appreciate my presence. I don't even want to look into your eyes when i speak to you. For that, i ask God to forgive me and hope He understands my behaviour. I tell Him to make me patient and that this relationship won't strain to the extent that you won't appear in my future.

God said we should love the people around us for Him. That i'm willing to do so and i'm trying hard. I dislike your personality and character that everyday, at least a handful of people try to pray for a change. I am grateful that you are here now, but it makes me wonder if you feel the same way about me. I don't feel welcomed at all. Speaking about feeling welcomed, the previous incident still left a scar on me. Reasons, excuses... I had enough, really. You make my life so perfect sometimes but for most, i feel so breathless trying to surrender to your every tantrum and stuff.

I feel so ashamed because i always have to cancel my appointments and meet ups because you ruin everything. My mood and my privacy. She here is trying to patch things up for me but you're pushing us away. I think it's time for both of us to give up trying; because really, i don't find the purpose to do so anymore.

*happy note*
My brother's going to get me the Twilight Movie Companion Guide! But only till i find the cheapest one. If not, then we'll have to settle for the current one (US$40). -desperate- I WANT IT! 8D The things i'd do for Twilight... D:

My uncle's family coming over later. Better keep my head high and smile (:

I hope you had a better day than i had. Cheers~

PS: oh, finally right? Thank You <3
PPS: I still need to take out the whiteboard in my room and replace it with a corkboard :/

, osn.

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